Morning after the Storm

I am feeling sooo much better today. I still have stinking tuition and car repair bills lingering over my head, but I feel better. Last night Carl and I had one of those fights. Those fights that are filled with yelling and slamming doors. Of tempers and pride. Of coming and going, ignoring and then....the lights went out. While we were hashing out probably months of unspoken frustrations inside, a thunderstorm was brewing outside and eventually knocked out our electricity. The darkness, as trite as it sounds, created some sort of calm in the room. So it was, surrounded by candlelight that we were able to work out our differences, explain where we were coming from, and move forward....and then the toddlers woke up which led to a whole family sleepover in our bed, with no ac, ugh. Today, i'm in that calm after the storm mood. This morning, when I put the girls in the car, it was cool. I didn't break a sweat just walking out onto the back porch. The grass was still wet, and it just feels like a day to move on.

While its never good to have a huge blow-out, I'm glad we did. We were able to resolve a number of isses. I have a new found trust in Carl. I trust that he will work hard to make sure things turn out ok. Things may not always be wonderful or how I have imagined them, but they will be ok and for now, that works.

Maybe, just maybe with my improved mood, our luck will improve too. Ha! You can always wish and hope ;)