Christmas spirit

This year, I'm having quite a difficult time getting into the Christmas spirit. I can't quite put my thumb on why.

I mean, there are the obvious life changes that may have put a damper on my Christmas spirit, but for some reason, I don't think that's it. I don't really have my own space at all, the girls are sharing with my parents. I won't have the girls on Christmas day either, which will be weird and probably a little sad.

Perhaps I'm more looking forward to my post-Christmas trip to visit Wendy. Maybe I'm anxious about what the future holds. I even found myself annoyed at the possibility of snow on Saturday/Sunday, thinking about my am runs and my girls getting home. How grinch-y of me!

I am cautiously looking forward to the new year, hoping that it does not bring any unwanted suprises, but instead brings hope for a brighter future. Regardless of my inability to get into the spirit this year, I will think of all of the people I have to be thankful for.