breakdown

I had a minor breakdown on Friday afternoon. It is no secret to anyone that knows Carl and me(unless you are Carl's parents or his brother) that Carl works...ALOT. I spend my days and nights looking forward to any amount of time I might get to spend with him. I know a few months ago (probably in January) ,I said that the summer would be no problem since I had him home during the fall and the beginning of the winter. I lied. This is much more difficult than I imagined, and I thought I had been imagining the worst. He has been working at least one weekend day each week since the beginning February and both weekend days since mid March. He has been working late nights and leaving very early in the morning...and its hard. Frustrations build making things harder. Last weekend was the first weekend since January that Carl was home the whole time...But I am having a problem, I idealize our time together in my head. Life never plays out the way you think it will, so I am inevitably disappointed. It sucks. He plans to come home for dinner or by the girls bedtime, but there is always rain or traffic or some other something that keeps him from being home. I try not to feel disappointed, but I am. I can't help it. So in short, thank you to my friends that help to keep me sane. Without you, I would probably slip into a deep depression and never leave my house. I appreciate all you do for me!

Now, for the more uplifting stuff....the weekend! Friday night, following my funk, we joined the Ambrose family for dinner and it was nice. The girls ate their first flavor-ice (a favorite of Ryan). It was a little challenging for them, but they seemed to enjoy it. After Carl and the kiddos went home, Brooke and I watched "Mad Money". It was cute, but not as funny as I had expected or hoped.

Saturday morning, in light of my duel with Brooke, I decided to raise my personal bar and go jogging with the kiddos. HAHAHAHA (laughing hysterical outloud) the jogging did not go as planned. It is HOT and HUMID outside. I would literally run an eight of a mile and have to walk...I'm not in the shape I was hoping for. We did my run walk thing to Target and back (I needed to pick up makeup and a converse shoes for Carl for father's day. All together it was a little over 2 miles (pitiful I know, but I guess you have to have a jumping off point right? hahaha). After our morning "jog", the girls and I spent the rest of the day enjoying the cool air conditioned inside. We played with their little people house (this time I didn't even get to be a little person ;() and had blueberry pancakes for lunch. I have a pancake-making deficiency by the way. Carl made it home by 6, and we headed out to the grocery store.

Sunday, fathers day, the girls and I had chocolate donuts for breakfast (I had to make up for the jog on Saturday). We laid around on the couch. I FINALLY finished Pope Joan, and the girls watched Peter Pan (aka Tinkerbell in my house). Carl came home a little after 2 (woohoo) and we headed to Cirucci's to go swimming in her pool. The kids in the baby pool were quite something (a story for another day), but the girls really enjoyed being in the big pool with us. Cirucci made us a delicious dinner! Carl and I took the kiddos to Moxley's for some ice cream afterwards. It was a nice afternoon :)