a new journey...

I have always been a fairly high strung person...someone who feels the need to fit many things into one day, a perfectionist and a person who rarely says "no". I have mentioned on more than one occasion in my blogs my feelings of being overwhelmed or stressed and in the past few weeks. Those feeling have intensified. They are not feelings about specific activities or actions, more just general anxiety that seems to have continually worsened. In fact, these past two weeks have been very difficult for me. I had a panic attack when I went to see Batman with some friends and another when I went to Friendly's for lunch with Carl and the girls. In fact, I couldn't even sit down to eat at Friendlys, I was too anxious. I have started to get anxious about feeling anxious, making the situation so much worse. I finally decided that I needed to seek some help.

On Monday, I went to see my primary care physician. He asked lots of questions, did an exam and took a lot of time with me. He decided that I have a panic disorder. Essentially I am stuck in panic mode. Her prescribed some medications for me to take, and I'm very hopeful they will help, both in the short and long term. Yesterday, I had a great day. Today is not as good. I do need to give these things a little time, and figure out which medicine will work the best for me. Just like my arthritis, I assume this will be a journey of trial and error, but I am hopeful that I can get this under control.