husbands!

So just to get this straight before I write the blog, I love mine.

Yesterday afternoon, I took the toddlers to the grocery store, by myself. Not that I haven't done this before, but it seems as though I am doing everything....by myself these days. I have this laundry list of chores at home that need to get done. I asked Carl to do one thing: put stain stick on Alie's shirt and my jacket. This morning, I come downstairs. Not done....unfortunately, I wasn't really suprised.

Today. I make Carl a dermatologist appointment. He evidentally didn't pay the co-pay from his last appointment (last june). problem #1. he doesn't go to the dr unless i make his appointments for him. problem #2. since he didn't pay his bill, i get the lecture from the nurse! ugh. Then, i call to change his dentist to my dentist so that it is easier for me to make dental appointments for him. fyi...carl has not been to the dentist once since we've been married. he has probably only been once during our entire 8 year relationship!!! totally gross i know. oh and i have been paying for dental insurance for him since we were married...so i decided today would be the day that he would at least get an appointment made. the lady at the insurance company informs me that since he is over the age of 18, he has to change his dental provider himself. does the lady not realize that he won't? that clearly, when he married me, and now even more with his new job, i am not only the mother of his children, but i have taken on the role of mother for him too. if i am not able to change his dentist, he may go another 6+ years without a dental visit.

the sad part of all of this...i am beginning to break under the pressure. sure, i have the whole working mom thing down. that's not a problem. its the whole mother of three children thing i am having difficulty with. it is physically impossible for me to get everything done in a timely fashion....i can't clean the house, fold the laundry, make the dinner, take care of toddlers, schedule everyone's appointments, balance the checking account, pay the bills, empty the potties, do the shopping, go to work and do well in grad school without a break or a little bit of help. that's what i'm doing now, and i'm about to go insane...i mean he even worked on mothers day!!!!!

i know that this is a totally selfish blog. carl works a lot of hours and has lots of work stress right now, so it appears that he has more going on than i do... i am just looking forward to the fall, when perhaps he might find some time to spend with the girls and i, when we might get his un-divided attention.