nesting?

I'm in this strange nesting phase of life. I think that I've realized that in order to truly be comfortable, or as comfortable as I can be, at my parents place, I need to get myself organized. My closet, which has been my brothers closet for the past 26 years, is filled with yearbooks and lacrosse jerseys in addition to my things. When I moved in, I just kind of threw my stuff on top of his and figured I'd deal with it later. Well, I have decided, its later! I spent a while last night putting his things together (most of which have a nice little spot on the shelf in the top corner of the closet), so that I could have better access and better storage for the stuff I use fairly frequently.

Next up, the girls room, aka the shrine to high school me. The bottom of their closet is devoted to my yearbooks, skating medals, old magazines, etc. The walls of the room are covered in spsg stuff. I would like to make it a space about them and give them a little more room in the closet for some of their toys and books.

I also think I need to make some of the things I like to use in the kitchen more accessible. Maybe that will motivate me to bake and cook again.

back to sewing

This past weekend, the girls and I worked on some serious organization. It looks like we're still with my parents for a bit (no suprises there). In light of that, I decided that our downstairs living space needed to be a bit more functional. The girls and I share a "crafting" table. So far, they have been the only ones to use it. They have covered it in their painting, stamping and coloring. They have taken over the space. I haven't sewn in months. This weekend, I changed that. I organized all of their artisitic items. Once I use some of my fabric, I will be better able to organize the rest of their stuff.

With our current living situation, I spend a large amount of time in my bedroom, especially after the girls have gone to bed or during times when they are not home. I decided last weekend that I wanted a comfy-er looking and feeling bed. Since its just the girls and I, I'm in this very girl-y place (I'm sure i've mentioned that before). Yesterday, I used more of my poppy fabric and made two more pillow cases. I am really pleased with how well they turned out. They were a great easy project to get back into sewing. I need to make the girls graduation dresses for their preschool graduation in a few weeks.

My next large-ish purchases will be a rug for the girls play area in the downstairs living area and hopefully a better colored rug for my room. Next up on the agenda, organize the stuff in my closet.

Determination

Have you ever wanted something really badly?

Right now, I want something very, very badly. I want to feel like I am fully independent. While I appreciate everything that my parents have done/are doing for me, I really want to move to an apartment. I want to cook in my own kitchen, eat at my own table and bake using my own bakeware. I want to curl up on a couch in the evening to watch a movie. I want to come home to my own home at night. I want to entertain my friends in my own comfortable environment. I want Laney and Alie to have play dates and not feel weird about it. I know it sounds silly, but these things are what I miss. They are what I think about on a daily basis.

I desperately want my independence. I have interviewed for a job that has the salary to get me where I want to be. I haven't heard anything (and its been over a week), so I'm guessing that I didn't get it, but I'm still thinking about it, dreaming about it, wanting it so badly! In the meantime, I'm picking up some extra responsibilities and building my resume. I am determined to get there!

I have the apartment all picked out. I'm waiting for the day when the girls and I can pack our bags and have our own place, just the three of us!